Dissociative Amnesia

I am brand new to this group. I am challenged with DID - and dissociative amnesia.
Trying to find ways to keep myself safe - I have had unsafe sex - with absolutely no memory.
There is ‘evidence’ of the sex act.
I never know what I missed - until little pieces of information come out -
The cringe of embarrassment and disgust can overwhelm me to the point of despair.
I am in a loving relationship - however, he absolutely believes/knows I have been “sneaking around” having sex - he has upgraded it to a love affair. He is said this in the past about a man we worked with - I have no memory - zero. From theses so called encounters. This is extremely difficult for both of us.
I have many little ways to track my time and movement. So, I can be absolutely 100% positive that there was zero possibility of any sexual contact. Only to hear him respond to the “new evidence “
These episodes make me feel full blown cray - and very unsafe. Imagine you have sex - yet you have no idea with who - when and where. I battle low self esteem for the first time - I have lost a good bit of self respect - so full of disgust for myself- so broken from causing my partner such agony. I believe I have about 9 alters. I am sure there is at least one, who can pretty much take over. She can engage with others, have sex - without any of my consent or knowledge. It’s physically, mentally & emotionally draining. Of course I have experienced sexual trauma - very little memories. Yet, there is enough I do remember. I am seeking healthy ways to heal, to live consciously - mindfulness. Considering hypnosis. I feel that I don’t have the truth about ME. I need to know - the truth. The truth about everything - all of it. I want my life back - I want to be the one in control of decisions. I decide who I see, who, when and where. I need to set and maintain boundaries. I need to stop, interrupt the sexual behavior. I need to get back in front - and live my very very best life.

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